First toy

I was so excited last night. We got home and I put Josie in her jumper so that I could get her diaper bag ready for today and I kept hearing a noise. I turned around and she is playing with her beads on her jumper. This is the first "toy" she has "played" with. The only thing she has ever attempted to hold and do anything with is her tigger blankie. And all she does with it is chew on it. She has an Einstein duck that Mom got her and she can make it go off but it's more of an accident. This she was actually moving her hands on purpose so that the beads would go up the pole and fall back down. I had to get the video camera out and tape her and of course after I done that she didn't do it much more cause she decided to get cranky. I'll have to figure out how to post it on here and get it on.
I'm back to having trouble with having to come to work and not stay home with her. I actually count down the days in the morning to her that we get to spend together. So only one more day of work and we get the weekend! That trailer is looking more promising to me. I think Mike stills thinks I'm joking about moving but I'm not. Yal it would be sad but in the long run do you really think it would be that big a deal! That and this economy is scary and our bills are just getting higher and higher and I don't see anyway out.

Found it

So yesterday Josie found her tongue. It was the funniest thing ever. She keeps sticking it out. She flattens it and she points it and out it comes. She is soaking everything. I tried to get some pictures but of course when the camera comes out she quits doing it. Mikey asked her last night what her deal was and I said she's found her tongue, he says yal no kidding.
Mom has her today and she called a few minutes ago and said she won't keep her pacifier in her mouth cause she keeps sticking her tongue out.
I will try and get a picture again tonight.

Sit up

So it's been a while since I've posted. I need to get better at this but I still have not done it. I think about it everyday but that's not the same as doing, is it?

Well since we last talked - Josie laughed for the first time out loud at Emily one evening when we were walking at Marlin. She doesn't even know what she done but whatever it was Josie thought it was funny. She has since laughed at Riley, Kayla, Mama Carole, Mommy and Daddy. I've gotten several out of her but only by pure luck. What will work one day she looks at you like you are stupid the next day. I love to hear it though and the poor girl gets hiccups when she does it.

She has also started trying to pull herself to a sitting position so Saturday I went and bought her a Bumbo. We tried it for the first time at Michelle's house that evening at Kayla's birthday. She seems to enjoy but she doesn't want to sit in it for very long. Here's a picture:

We dressed Josie up as a pumpkin for halloween. I couldn't find a costume I liked that would fit with the carseat. We were only taking her to Grandparents anyway so I just used Riley's costume. Watch out next year though, it may be pretty fun. I love Halloween.

Mike & I tried to take her 3 month pictures on the Sunday that she turned 12 weeks. We got a few and then she decided to spit up her formula everywhere so that didn't last. This happened though after I got everything set up and her changed down at Mom's so she could help me and Josie decided it was time for a nap. So after she spit up all over her outfit and the backdrop I had to postpone it til the next weekend. So this past Sunday after church, Mom, Michelle, Riley, Kayla and I took her pictures and we got some cute ones. The one with the hat is the ones we took on her 13 week Sunday, the jean outfit is one I got taken before she spit up everywhere.

Kayla turned 2 on November 1st. She was alot of fun to watch this year. She completely gets it now. The poor kids though fought over her new toys. Michelle set up her castle that she got and Riley wanted to play with her but Kayla did not want Bubby touching her stuff.

The girls took a bath together before we took Josie home to put in bed. Kayla really enjoyed having her in the tub. When Josie cried cause Aunt Michelle dumped water on her head, Kayla says "It's okay Josie!" She is too cute!!!

Well I think that is all that has happened since the last post. I will try and be better about this!

2 Month Shots

Josie went for her 2 month shots yesterday. Poor little girl! She done very well though. She weighs 11 lbs 12 oz and is 23.5 in long already. Growing like a weed. Her skill level measured 4 month 2 weeks. So she is a smart little girl already! :-)

Dr Malone is having me put cereal in her bottles now to see if that will help her with spit up. We started that yesterday when we got back from the doctor. She didn't seem to spit up as much but she is having trouble getting it to come out of the bottle. Course it might just be she is tired from those shots or not hungry. Time will tell.

Here's a pic I took on Sunday when she turned 2 months. I can't believe how much she is growing. Before we know it she'll be crawling! I can't wait. They are so fun when they are active. I know I'll be saying otherwise when the time comes but for now I'm excited for it.

Me on the other hand, haven't been doing very well. I know I'm gonna get better but I so can not wait! I feel like I'm missing out on stuff because I don't feel good. I finally got the doctor to do something yesterday though. He changed my antidepressant and put me on an anti-anxiety med. I took my first one of those this morning. I didn't have an anxiety attack this morning. Just felt a little mopey. I come out of it in the afternoon and the evening and almost feel like myself. This postpartum depression stuff is pretty scary! It's really hard to explain how it feels. I just hope these pills start kicking in and it starts getting better real soon. Like I've told everyone, hit me with a hammer, I know how to deal with that pain. This stuff I don't know how to deal with! Mike and my parents have been awesome! I know I'm wearing everyone out but if they will all just hang in there with me then I'll be great. Nothing replaces your Dad & Mom when you feel this way. Not even your husband even though he tries so hard! I'm just ready to be myself. So Josie can know her real Mom!

She's Here and I'm Back

Here's some pics of her first few days:

I'll post more later. I'm still in the process of getting everything caught up and also the feeling of wanting to be at work.

I have never NOT wanted to do something so much in my life. I want to hit rewind so bad on the last 6 weeks. Not on her growing up but me being able to be off of work. It sucks that we aren't in the early days where the mothers were expected to stay home and take care of their children. I so much want to be able to do this. I keep trying to talk Mike into selling everything and moving to a trailer so that I can stay home. He's not going for it so I guess I will keep on working!